Life. sometimes it can be weird..
I’m not goin lie.. this is my 1000th time trying to write this.. For some reason the thought of this being out in the world for anyone to see..
..has given me the upmost anxiety.
But f*ck it.
This won’t be perfect because life isn’t perfect.. its actually weird.. like really weird.
Sometimes you’re having the time of your life and other times you just want it all to end —
Sometimes life feels like a big ball of rainbows and in the next moment it feels like the sky is falling.
Sometimes you feel fit, sometimes you feel bloated.
Sometimes you want to be in company and other times you want to be completely alone.. see what I mean? Weird.
It’s like one ongoing rollercoaster.. of ups and downs.. twist and turns.. you’re upside down then right side up…. ugh *rolls eyes* I’m giving myself a headache.
The point is, life isn’t meant to be straight and narrow.
It’s meant to be unpredictable. crooked, rather lol.
Think of it like a road. Have you ever seen a perfectly straight road? Really think.. because I haven’t..
it always has a curve somewhere in there.. a hill .. pothole, it’s never straight. (yes, I googled this to make sure I wasn’t giving false information lol) Lets break down why..
If roads were perfectly straight you’d drive on autopilot, which ultimately means.. you wouldn’t be engaged.
You’d do things like fall asleep behind the wheel and potentially harm yourself or others. Think about it, how does life feel when you’re on autopilot?
stagnant? boring? no purpose? just floating. yea I get that.
Life should throw you curve balls. keep you on your toes. like those sharp curves on a road or the *bump, bump* strip near the median that let’s you know you’re gearing off course.
you find yourself having to slow down… and if you’re not careful, you can end up on the side of the road or even worse…
flipping your car over, which would be tragic.
That’s why it’s important to pay attention to the signs. Unfortunately, God or the universe — whoever your upmost high is — they don’t give us big yellow arrows..
or “slow downs”.. or “road work ahead”.. they give us subliminal signs…
the ones you have to pay close attention to.
You ever have a 30 second conversation with a stranger and they say exactly what you needed to hear? Sign
Or.. a friend holds you accountable for something that you’ve been putting off for a while? Sign.
A thought you just can’t shake.. an idea that shows up a million different ways? Sign. The urge to follow your dreams and go after your heart’s most wildest desires? Sign.
You casually meeting someone in the exact career you want to pursue? Sign. I mean I can go on and on.. the signs are there, we as humans just overlook them.
We get distracted or ridiculed by our fears and stump ourselves before even starting.
We.. or I.. get distracted with things that are easy.. like scrolling through social media, working a 9-5 that doesn’t make me feel alive but pays the bills.
drinking… smoking.. just to escape my head. But all those beautiful ideas are inside my head.. and instead of escaping, I should be embracing. You too.. I mean, if you can relate…
Yes.. life can get dark sometimes… I mean really dark. But I’ve started describing those moments as dim. And when things are dim, they can be bright again.
Just like after a storm there’s a rainbow. And after a serious cry there’s a life changing nap.
So cool, life is weird.. weird as hell.
But everyday you wake up.. means you have a chance to make your world bright again.
The rollercoaster of living each day is something.. but at the end of the day when the ride is over and everything is calm and settled… you slowly make it back to the starter position..
someone yells “lets go again!” and lets!
Because what’s life without a little twist and turns!? why not live multiple lives in one?
start over as many times as you want.
Keep going down your road to somewhere..
You’ll eventually end up exactly where you’re meant to be.
Sending virtual hugs!
-Ana
Closing remarks:
Heyyy, thanks for reading my very first post! stay awhile and receive laughs, new perspectives, and uplifting gems. xo